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It is quite interesting and also its changing my life @Ali11 . The eating slow is important. And no drinking 30mins before and waiting at least 30mins after a meal. I try to strectch out the after eating to one hour.

My two dogs- ones a little princess Kira nicknamed Trouble she is a Staffordshire Bull Terrier and Milo is a French Bulldog and his nickname is Bullfrog. My staffy is 12 years old and my frenchie is 15 months old. My staffy still thinks she is a pup and she is gawjus. My frenchie is beautiful too.

@oceangirl , I use fruity teabags to flavour water. I am using a passion fruit and hibiscus one at the moment, but I also like apple and cinnamon, or mixed berries ..... there are so many on the market. I just fill a water bottle, pull the swing tag off the teabag, and drop it into the water bottle. If you leave it for 5-10 minutes I flavours the water.

I know you need the electrolytes at the moment, but this is something you can do along with the Gatorade, or later.

@Faith-and-Hope I have some flavored tea bags at home I've not tried them since my surgery. Although I have the peppermint tea from time to time. I want to have one at least every day it will be good for my digestion. I was down on my hydration today thats why I had the electrolytes, I was hoping it would help with how I was feeling. I have heard the surface tension water is hard for some sleeve patients- many can't have plain water after the surgery. And some it just takes time. I think I will start measuring my water just make sure I am reaching my intake per day. Not because obsessed, I drink a little bit of everything most days. Overall I am doing well, just a bit wobbly atm.

Goodnight @Faith-and-Hope @Ali11 @Appleblossom @Snowie @Meowmy

I'm scared and cannot sleep. I find out tomorrow if I am going into hospital for sure or not. My Mrs wants me to go. I am ambivalent. The click-clacking in my head has to stop though. It frightens me.The now constant head screaming of my voices along with the paranoia and overall sensory overload when I go out is wearing me down. I have to go grocery shopping tomorrow and the sensory overload with that really freaks me out at the moment. I am supposed to be going to an NRL match over the weekend but I don't know if I can possibly make it or not. Everything is all up in the air.

I haven't slept in days, albiet for about 2 hrs Wednesday morning. I am not manic however. I'm exhausted. I feel like a small child in a way thrust into a very adult world which I don't understand. I know I am an adult but all adult concepts seem foriegn to me right now. I tried logging into lifeline online chat (not sure that's the right space for me as I am not in crisis or suicidal) but I couldn't get through and now it is closed.

I am panicking I am going to let everyone down and find myself under the MHA in a public hospital. I am just that frightened. 😞

I hope you can get some sleep @Queenie . Have you tried anything for your sleep- jetlag medication. It does help me. But of course check with your Dr first you also need it on a script. I am sorry you feel so scared and uncomfortable. Don't worry about other people, I am more concerned about you. You will be okay just make yourself comfortable as best you can so that you're able to sleep. I am going to log off for now, and try myself.

Hi @Queenie 💕

I have woken up and checked in, hoping it will help me get back to sleep ina while, and saw your message.

That is a lot going on for you .... and it sounds like you could use some help.

I am guessing that hospital would involve a meds review ? It’s a good idea for your team to check that out. If you go in voluntarily you retain that control of it being about your choices. Your Mrs. clearly has your best interests at heart. That amount of sleep deprivation alone is a worry, and you are not in a comfortable place within yourself.

Hugs Hon ..... I am glad you’re sharing here what is going on for you so we can walk with you and help to support you with the tricky decisions.

I hope you get some restful sleep @oceangirl . I don't think my doctor will give me a script for jetlag medication, especially if it is a particular class of medication due to my addiction history.

Thanks for checking in @Faith-and-Hope . Yes it will be mainly to stablise me and a meds review. I know if I go voluntarily I can go to a private clinic which allows devices which is always a plus as it means I can have contact with the outside world. My Mrs won't be able to visit me very often (but I can Facetime her) which has puts doubts on the situation. I know I have some big adult choices to make tomorrow. I won't be getting a bed right away so I think it will be early next week before I go in (as they don't admit on weekends due to no doctor on duty).

I thought about texting a friend about my click clacky head noises (he would understand as he hears unusual things too sometimes) but at this hour I might wake him and make him angry. I don't want to do that.

Big sighs!

Hi @Faith-and-Hope

Thank you for checking in and helping our friend. I thought he needed help too. I am worried about him.

Hi again @Queenie Its a natural medication that our body makes and its non addictive. I just thought it might help. I am glad F&H checked in too.