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I think its a coping mechanism and I don't feel safe and probably other reasons too @Ali11 I do need help in what I could say to my GP. I did try today but I left with no real plan. But she did request information from my last hospital admission and my specialist. Unfortunately that just made me feel anxious more and I wanted a plan to move forward. Perhaps I could practice here before my next appointment.

No prob @MDT I hope I start to pick up too. I am trying to open up here- because I feel comfortable talking to you guys. Its a small step forward for me, and I hope I can in turn open up to my GP. I hope you sleep well. Goodnight Hams

That is a great idea @oceangirl, also writing things down that you want to talk about (and then leaving room for answers) helps as well, that way you have a plan going in and you can revert to your notes in case you get anxious in there.

I’m hearing you @oceangirl ..... and we’ll done on communicating so clearly about how you’re feeling.

I hope it has helped to talk it out a bit. Practicing what you might need to say with someone else (others here) first when you’re feeling tongue-tied with your gp is smart ..... it helps you find the pathways you want to use, so they are a little more familiar when you are in a more unsettlled place.

The peppermint tea and shower sound good too.

Keep chatting here if you need to. I will be up for a little while yet.

I feel relief talking to you & others here @Faith-and-Hope . You seem to able to find the words, I am struggling to express or say. It maybe just fear holding me back. I am scared to say the wrong thing. But other problem is my memory or anxiety and then I lose my train of thought quite quickly. I have some time to think about what I would like to say to her- my appointment is next Thursday.

I can start with talking to her about my concerns and how

I would like support around my MI. I am not sure what the role of the GP is- I guess she coordinates my care. The reason I am hestitate is because she is a new GP.Thats where I am anxious to talk to her because I don't know her too well. I think with my mood being low it just made it harder for me to talk. But I do think I talked to her more today than I had before. When I spoke to the hospital in Sydney a few weeks back- I was given really nice feedback- they told me I did really good work in hospital and they thought I would do really well with one on one therapy. I would like to think with being open, honest and willing, I am able to move forward in a positive manner. Just to take that leap of faith and to trust the process. Just like if I was little girl standing on the bench and wanting to jump and having faith that the person standing there will catch me. Or it more learning to let go and starting to swim. I know I can swim and maybe thats what I need to do. Its seem easy but I am scared. I hope this makes sense F&H.

It does @oceangirl .

Maybe hold onto that image of the little girl on the beach, and bring it to mind at the gp’s rooms to help calm your nerves.

Can youclose your eyes and imagine her writing things down with a stick in the sand ?

Glad it made sense @Faith-and-Hope

I find connecting with the little girl inside me, gives me courage, and calmness and direction. I will hold onto that image when I am seeing the GP. But by the time I see her I would have seen my two specialists.

@Faith-and-Hope @Ali11 @MDT @Snowie @Meowmy

Goodnight all

I just had a smoothie, I know its late to eat but I thought it might help me sleep.

Goodnight @oceangirl 💕