bad to worse

I feel really bad- I feel so not good.

Collected daughters school work from old school & then pages are practically empty- 10 weeks they have been in school for term one &

26 pages in total were in her scrapbooks - not all were completed a third were not done at all-

it looks like a couple of weeks work - not a full terms work-

& my daughter told me every time she went to toilet when she came back she was told to sit on the mat & would have to finish it another time- which she never got presented the work to complete or given the opportunity to complete for homework or on weekends or recess/ lunch-

same with the mentor- when she returned she was not explained the work that the class was doing or given the opportunity to complete- she was just told to sit on the mat & finish later- with no direction as to how or when to finish-so she just didn't ever get it done- I was not kept in the loop & she felt she was falling more behind as a result of this instead of helping her catch up.

I just feel so sick inside.

I found out I didn't read my lease properly or understand it as I am not good with paperwork & all the very large trees that are on the property & I assumed would be the owners responsibility to trim - is written in the lease it's my responsibility- I can't afford that- I am already drowning in the overpriced rent

my he recessed lighting is all my responsibility to change to & I would imagine they are expensive & I don't know how to do it so will have to pay for a tradie to do it - I can't afford that & didn't realise- if I did I would never have moved into this place- especially the trees.

I feel like I'm spiralling out of control- I was told about the rental thing for people of low incomes & thought that's my way out of this mess IV got myself into- but the houses are all so far away in areas I don't know & I will loose my supports that I have in place that took so long to finally get because I will no longer be in the right area- also I don't think my agoraphobia will let me move to a place so far away- I feel like I am trapped & drowning in quicksand- I need to get out of this house ASAP- but can't Think or function properly- I don't feel like my brain is working properly & IV been in bed the past two days crying & feeling so much overwhemling anxiety & c PTSD agoraphobia- I literally don't know how I am going to get out of this house into a new one - but have to ASAP.

We had storms last night & I was up paranoid the whole night that the overgrown trees would break of & blow into the house.

I am not coping- things just seem to go from worse to worse & I can't see a way out.

I really need help but have nobody