Narcissitic Take Down

I literally feel sick.

Thinking more & more about the appt. w Principal I had on Friday -

-How he asked me how I was feeling when I arrived & I was explaining to him the hiuge impact of the serious situation my daughter is facing at school is having on me- how he was taking NOTES the whole time I was talking about this- how I said it was affecting me so severely I felt close to breakdown- from Monday-(continuously until weds) when I saw the teacher be harsh & angry to my already distressed child & also myself-& how I only felt better when I went to my doctors on Wednesday & she wrote a letter of support for me & said she'd be my advocate---

why did I tell him that ?

- it was so weird he sat back very strangely nodding , taking notes & just letting me spill my story- I looked at him because I thought it was strange- just got a weird vibe -he wasn't having a conversation with me- he wasn't asking how I was because he cares or was interested-he was compiling evidence-( for my daughter mental health assessment this teus)-

- he said " oh I'm just listening "-( he wasn't he was NOTE TAKING-

it felt really odd & not right-

i can't be sure of what exactly I said because my anxiety was peaking & alarm bells were going off as it felt so weird- my instinct !- but he could write anything & LIE- as he LIED to me already & other teachers there have lied about me also-

THEN -AS SOON AS WE STARTED SPEAKING ABOUT MY DAUGHTER

HE PUT HIS PEN & NOTEPAD DOWN & DID NOT PICK IT UP AGAIN- FOR THE ENTIRE REMAINDER OF APPOINTMENT!!!

***WEWERE THERE TO TALK ABOUT MY CHILD HAVING SEVERE DIFFICULTIES & ANXIETY ABOUT SCHOOL TO THE POINT SHE DOES NOT WANT TO GO-***BUT HE DID NOT TAKE ONE NOTE ABOUT THIS!!!****

-Also In my Doctors Support letter she put I have significant mental health condition **ONLY so they can take that into consideration & be gentle & caring with Indi -that's all!!

- I felt a little uncomfortable about how she had worded it in her letter- "Indi has it more difficult than most children because of her mothers significant mental health condition "-

i felt it kind of made me sound to be a bad mother- but I didn't think to ask her to change it- cos of anxiety- & I gave it to him hoping that they would take it the right way & concentrate on the rest of the information which was all about my daughter .

- I feel that when my daughter has her mental health assessment this teus & they contact the principal he will try & convince them that all Indis problems are because of me & my mental health- WHICH he has said to me- he said " she is having anxiety Because when She gets to the classroom she is picking up on my anxiety "- because IV told the teacher a few times IV had anxiety in the classroom- IV said this for one reason ONLY so they are aware & can be helpful & compassionate- not to be used against me- which I feel is what they will absolutely are planning on doing-

-SHOULD I BE WORRIED?? Will they make out I am such a bad moth that CAMHS will have concerns over my daughters SAFETY?? I just know in my HEART & SOUL this is what he is planning on doing (to what degree I don't know)-& when I read that section of the doctors support letter- it didn't sit well with me- but I was not focused enough to get her to change it because I was distressed & my anxiety!

Principal Denys ANYTHING NEGATIVE is happening at school even though My daughter tells me herself & IV seen it with my own eyes!

He refuses to believe there is a problem- says my child is making it up for negative attention

he says they are doing so much for her & spending more time on her than any other child in the school-( I doubt that)-- BUT he cannot EXPLAIN to me what they are actually doing about her, or give me a plan of action to help ease her anxiety- I get absolutely no feedback at all about my daughter & my EMAILS GO UNANSWERED-or the answered but the serious concerns I have IGNORED !!

i am really worried about this- as I have told him I am considering making an official complaint to the education department-( not to threaten him - But in the hopes of him hearing, believing & doing something to help my daughter-& told him it will all be brought up at her CAMHS assessment- because THATS WHY WE ARE GOING!!

- If I am right & he is a narcissit planning a character assassination of me he will TAKE ME DOWN!!- you CANNOT WIN AGAINST NARCISSITS- I am REALLY SO CONCERNED & don't know what to do??

-I just want a healthy & safe environment for my daughter to learn & grow in- which she does NOT have atm- but he is assuring she does 😭😭😭 PLEASE Help 😭😭😭