Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.

47,612Members
1,358,869Posts
1,400,000Visitors

More diligent vigilance was needed @

KurraSenior Contributor06 Apr 2019, 4:22 am AEDT

More diligent vigilance was needed @

So ..... guess it had to happen. I either completely missed the early warning signs of an impending greasy pole decline or made an active choice to ignore them. You can be sure that smarty pants here believed the 'it won't happen to me' mantra.

I'm falling apart at the seams, I've holed myself up in my home and pup and I pretty much hide from the world. This doesn't worry me so much - it will pass eventually.

Habitual default thought patterns have returned wit a vengeance Fri and well, early Sat morning. This scares me stupid. In some ways I put the icing on the slippery pole by volunteering for The Sudsy challenge. The concept is to bring attention to problem of cleaning clothes and bodies for that matter by wearing the same clothes for 72 hours. A very fluro orange Tshirt explaining the dilemma of the current 116 000 homeless people in Australia.

I truly believed I had come to terms with my lengthy period of homelessness 17 years ago. Well, it appears to have been the final catalyst and I'm finding it extremely hard to stop myself from from giving in to the negative self talk.

• The "my family would take weeks to even notice I was MIA"

• The "I just don't care anymore "

• The "sooner I'm out of this, the better it will be for everyone"

There's a right royal pity party going on here.

I'll be OK.

I'm not at risk in anyway.

Just thought it might be an idea to speak out to SANE members before I find myself in a dire situation.

Sorry about the long rant.

Luv n Hugs to all 💕

21 replies

11 - 20 of 21

1 2 3

In response to: More diligent vigilance was needed @

AppleblossomSenior Contributor07 Apr 2019, 10:43 am AEST

Re: More diligent vigilance was needed @

Wot @Zoe7 sed.

Group hug!

Try and keep the big bad "cat" o nine tails in the corner or better still ... give it a toss.

After all you have been through, its understandable you needed to get going at one time.

Sorry to hear about the deterioration in muscoskeletal issues. It is HARD. The other lass left as she thought unsupportive people she knew from family, were looking at her forum profile.

I had not heard of the sudsy thing, but for a while have advocated that we can wear the same outer clothes for longer and that we overwash and it is bad for the environment. It is not about being "dirty" god forbid! It is about what we as humans on this planet need to keep the while shebang moving along in the best possible way.

Our experiences stay with us. A lot of my private habits, quirks now, are still effected by my past. At the moment I am allowing clothes to accumulate in piles. Dirty piles get washed quickly, to be worn again and clean piles are separate. It reminds me of the orphanage where I saw huge piles of clean clothes. Thats how they distributed it. I need a carptenter to help me fix my robe. SHelf collapsed its a mess and I cant get myself to care. I am on strike about it. Til it gets done .. I guess.

I was a good girl and put all my clothes away in all the various places, homes, etc according to all their different rules. I was a good mum and folded my children's clothes for over 30 years, tho encouraged them to help.

Part of me is being a bit teenagery about clothes for myself ... now I can do it or not do it and nobody goes mad at me. What are the types of protest available to me? None back then. Not much even now. There is the forum.

I had not heard of it, so checked the Sudsy challenge. Its a qld initiative. Good in its way, but timing is important. Maybe the timing is not right for you @Kurra or you @Queenie Maybe you know those things too intimately and dont need to experience more, but the point about the conversations is good. I am glad it caused you to share about this stuff ...