TiredMamaCasual Contributor
Please help!
From a desperate woman trying to help her beautiful partner. Does anyone here have experience of living with (self or others) paranoid schizophrenia. What does it look like? Where do I go for help? The place I am at right now is my partner tends to become paranoid over night, and is mostly completely fine during the day. I mean paranoid cars are following him, neighbors are lending their houses to people who are trying to take his loved things (Me and kids etc), I am apparently sleeping with the whole world! He has not slept, literally in four days. he spends every second trying to figure out what or who is in his phone tracking him, on my phone, on our kids ipads. We're all in on it. I am a tech savvy person who intentionally hides things to make him feel insecure. He sees videos playing at night on the wall and hears things. I am desperate to help, I am exhausted from no sleep, I am mentally and emotionally drained from justifying I am a good person. I present evidence and he talks it down or claims later I never showed him. Or I fabricated it. HELP! I can't keep living like this. Please no negative comments. I am not walking away or simply sending him away, I am asking for experience and where I can go for help. I plan to see a psychologist myself for help. He refuses as he "outsmarts" them and "knows the problem". I am not committing him unless its a last resort. he refuses his medication (anxiety) as he doesn't need it and the doctors are out to get him also. He has some very lucid moments where he apologises, and knows he is unwell. It comes in waves. It begins slowly where we'll have one random night of the paranoia. Then 2, then 5, then it creeps into daytime. then it becomes a constant thing. Am I totally off track with thinking paranoid schizophrenia? Is there something else I should be researching? Drugs are not the issue.Though drug use has been in his early child hood. I have considered this is causing a problem now. Literally as the sun comes up, he switches back to normal. When he is in this paranoid state, it's like he's in a trance. I can talk to him but he just says what i want to hear to shut me up"
