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My Lament over being medicated.

SimonaSenior Contributor26 Apr 2016, 8:14 pm AEST

My Lament over being medicated.

It's almost 8pm and I'm rattled. I already had my 1st anti psychotic with dinner. And I have all these sleepy pills/relaxants here to fill in the gaps. And I'm supposed to take another* anti psychotic before bed : / NO NO NO. This last one I loathe. I loathe it because it was given to me before so I know what to expect. I hate it. I refuse it. I didn't know it was the same one. They called it by a different name. So i feel tricked. I respect they say I need it but I just can't. I'm so acutely tired of being medicated/doped up and the up and down of the volume control in my head. I should just go to bed now. I have nothing to contribute to family life from my moaning corner. I take my meds and i sit staring glassy eyed. I exist and now i come here and moan some more. I'm sorry.

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SimonaSenior Contributor01 May 2016, 4:32 pm AEST

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Hello mrkotter & thanks for your reply. As a former anorexic these medications feel even more of a threat. I'm just at my perfect weight though still low BMI. I'm obsessive with being healthy but more so with being in control. Control is a huge things for me. It just get's me pumped and prepped. No Sanders for me. My filth is maybe a few squares of that Club Dark choc with roasted almonds. The sugar rush ahh yes.

Yeah i want to be able to take mine as required too. Not every single day. I have been naughty hahaha but i'm so much more fun without it. I just started my job last friday so early days yet. I will take your good advice. So far there is one i take that's just like tic tac before bed. Just hate those dissolve on your tongue ones.

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SimonaSenior Contributor01 May 2016, 4:45 pm AEST

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Hi Beck; yeah the change overs suck big fat lemons. I don't even know who i am some weeks. Come Tuesday i see my pysch nurse again and i will very matter of factly fess up to not taking that other one. I simply can't function on 2 anti psychotics. It's simply not doable. I'm on the old ones because the latest one which is also a mood stabilizer made me agitated and very twitchy. Damn shame

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