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Standing in a crowded room

QueenieSenior Contributor27 Mar 2019, 8:26 pm AEDT

Standing in a crowded room

I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs but won’t even be noticed.

or I feel like I’m riding the rapids in a leaky boat about to tumble over the cascades.

Nothing brings me pleasure not even chocolate.

I’m just going through the motions day in day out.

This past week I’ve really been battling the blues, and schiz for good measure. A lot of negative coping like self harm urges have been floating about.

Can someone just talk to me? I’m in a very dark place and unsure if the light at the end of the tunnel isn’t a train.

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Unknown userMember27 Mar 2019, 8:46 pm AEDT

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Hi @Queenie,

Things sounds so difficult and overwhelming right now and I'm sorry you are going through this. Having to manage what you are managing and not being able to take pleasure in the things you usually enjoy is so difficult. I'm about to send you an email to check in.

Take care,

Tortoiseshell

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QueenieSenior Contributor27 Mar 2019, 9:16 pm AEDT

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Thanks @Former-Member for checking in. It kind of helps to know I’m not on my own in this.

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CheerBearSenior Contributor27 Mar 2019, 9:21 pm AEDT

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🙁 That's some really tough stuff @Queenie.

I don't know if it would help but I'll be around for a little while longer if you'd like some company.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor27 Mar 2019, 10:34 pm AEDT

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@Queenie big hugs.

Do you have a mental health team you could connect with because it sounds really hard to deal with on your own.

I'm sorry you've been so down and the schiz is getting bad too. Do you want to talk more about it.

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BunniekinsSenior Contributor28 Mar 2019, 6:21 am AEDT

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@Queenie Hey Queenie don't forget how well you have been doing. You have been kicking arse at your studies and you have dropped a dress size from all the gym that you have been doing. You are doing so well. Thinking of you. Love greenpea xxxx

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CheerBearSenior Contributor28 Mar 2019, 9:26 am AEDT

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Just calling by to send you some thoughts @Queenie and hope for a better feeling day for you today ❤

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QueenieSenior Contributor28 Mar 2019, 11:10 am AEDT

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Hello friends,

I am going to my gp today. I’m not sure what to say exactly. I hope I don’t come across as an idiot. I just got a text from my support worker. Apparently I really freaked him out.

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SnowieSenior Contributor28 Mar 2019, 11:34 am AEDT

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Hi @Queenie

Just try and be honest with your gp. I know how hard that can be at times however. I hope it goes well.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor28 Mar 2019, 11:56 am AEDT

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@Queenie I hope the go appointment goes how you want it to. Sometimes it helps to write down things you want to say. For me at appointments I know are going to be hard I write a list of dot points I want to cover.

Wishing you well.

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CheerBearSenior Contributor28 Mar 2019, 12:58 pm AEDT

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Another hoping it goes well too @Queenie. I don't think you'll sound like anything other someone who maybe could use some support.

From my experience and understanding, it's fairly easy to freak out a support worker with the current system (which is where from memory your support worker is funded through). It's maybe not so much a reflection of you or of the workers, but more of a system that isn't quite up to speed with how best to support people with psychosocial disability related needs.

Interested in hearing how you went if you feel up to sharing.

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