That is an awful lot of stress, anxiety, distress, grief, mourning and more @Tufftimes ...., you have certainly chosen a username that reflects what has been happening in your life. I am so sorry to hear it, and yet I am glad you are talking to us about it, and not carrying it all, so heavily, by yourself.
Hugs n hugs coming your way, from me, and ai expect from others here too.
Its lives experiences like these that you can write (or ask the mods to transfer from this thread for you) into your own space under Our Stories m, if you want. That’s what @Former-Member was referring to. Do what feels like it works for you .... it’s great to see you visiting a few threads and getting to know other forumites.
Self-care is big on the recovery to-do list, and making a Coping Box is a good idea too. Choose an attractive box, or “pretty” it up in some way that is soecial to you. Then place inside things to help you manage on down days and / or times ..... perhaps a hand cream with a comforting scent, some tea bags of herbal tea, a CD of music, websites to visit, special photos, pen and paper to write things out, a coffee or foot massage voucher, etc .....