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WatermelongirlContributor14 Mar 2019, 10:55 am AEDT

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I’m new.

I have complex ptsd.

i suppresses my memories of sexual abuse.. that started at the age of 3 and continued through my teenage years. I’ve had multiple abusers. My memories are returning to me. I’m scared. Each memory is like I’m living it for the first time. It feels like I’ve had two lives. The one I remember and the one that has just started to surface. I feel raw. My anxiety is overwhelming me. I’m sick with a virus right now - and I’ve never coped well with taking time off work. I have a good support network. I have a trusted psychologist, psychiatrist, doctor.. my family know most of it. Some of my friends know too. But I feel alone. I feel like I live a half life, and that life is full of insecurity and shame.

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SnowieSenior Contributor14 Mar 2019, 11:05 am AEDT

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Hi @Watermelongirl

Welcome to Sane forums

It is so hard when we have those memories return. I am glad you have a good support network surrounding you.

Do you use any distraction techniques to help with the flashbacks?

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WatermelongirlContributor14 Mar 2019, 11:10 am AEDT

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I try grounding myself.. and breathing techniques. I use the app Calm.

But somedays.. like today - I feel like that’s all I’ve been doing.

Usually I do okay, I do CrossFit or try to distract myself with a book or draw.. I’m learning to not eat as that had been a coping strategy that’s lead to being overweight - and I’m on a plan from nutritionist to help fight that.

@Snowie wrote:
Hi @Watermelongirl
Welcome to Sane forums
It is so hard when we have those memories return. I am glad you have a good support network surrounding you.
Do you use any distraction techniques to help with the flashbacks?

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SnowieSenior Contributor14 Mar 2019, 11:19 am AEDT

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It is hard when our coping strategies do not help us. Sometimes it is just about trying to get through each hour as it comes.

I hope you find this forum supportive, it can also be a good distraction when having rough days.

@Watermelongirl

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WatermelongirlContributor14 Mar 2019, 11:21 am AEDT

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Thank you. It helps knowing that someone knows

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starflameSenior Contributor14 Apr 2019, 2:06 pm AEST

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I am going through the same stuff @Watermelongirl

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Shaz51Senior Contributor14 Apr 2019, 3:07 pm AEST

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hello and tender hugs @starflame , @Watermelongirl , @Snowie

remember we are here for you , you are never alone

so please keep sharing xx

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WatermelongirlContributor14 Apr 2019, 6:08 pm AEST

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It’s pretty tough going. I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone. Hope you’re okay.

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WatermelongirlContributor14 Apr 2019, 6:10 pm AEST

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@starflame @Shaz51 ❤️❤️❤️

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Shaz51Senior Contributor14 Apr 2019, 6:10 pm AEST

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we are here for you @Watermelongirl

what`s happened my friend xoxo

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