Typical🙄

Didn't get to see the doctor today- the app. Was at 1:15- she called me at 1:45- I had an app. W Principal at 2:00- so I had to leave straight away.

Its cool I understand how these things go - (doctors running late)-I'm completely ok with it- just REALLY needed to see her today.

Got into psyc tomorrow tho yay cos someone cancelled - but hey geuss what it looks like it's going to rain- my car that I only just bought windscreen

rubber bits are coming off- the mechanic says- oh it's a 2 min job bring it round- get there actually he needs to order the whole windscreen wipers in on this sort of car -wtf!

I called the guy I bought it off he said "it's not on warranty but will do it anyway"- oh how kind of him- have a feeling he knew about this all along - got the worst bad vibes off him & instinct in my gut NOT to buy this car - but felt pressured into it& was anxious , confused & distracted by my child so ignored that feeling - silly me -

its going to RAIN TOMORROW so how am I supposed to get my child to school & get to psych appt.. With a car I can't drive in the rain?? I NEED to go to this appointment - but I am literally having so much anxiety I feel like I am having a break down. AGAIN!!Why of all days? Is God testing me to see how much I can take before I really loose my mind. ?

so if I drive over an hour away to get the wipers fixed from the dodge guy who said he would- is he going to turn around & say the same thing the other guy did?? Oh sorry I actually have to order them in they cost $100-

Should I clarify that with him before I drive an hour away- ? What do I say? J can't even think straight !!!!

I don't feel like I SHOULD be driving an hour away because of the state of mind I am in right now!-

Why is everything so hard- I am completely alone with no one to ask for help because my anxiety & agoraphobia has prevented me from making connections with people.

I just can't take much more of this shit -& to top it off the mental Heath nurse who is supposed to be supportive & help through issue like this - just DID NOT want to know about the car situation or offer any help or advice at all- she just kept changing the subject & saying she has no advice for me regarding the car!.- fuck her! Can we even aware on here? I'm so pissed off& I feel so stuck & alone- I wish I had one person I could rely on for help - I'm so over feeling incapable & useless.