Mixed episode.... maybe?

so i am not asking for a diagnosis btw just asking for tips cause i think i might be having a mixed episode but i am no doctor so i really dont know and this could be anything BUT i am feeling super weird and like i feel like crying but i also want to run around singing and dancing and like i am not really sleeping much either well actually i am sleeping one night then not sleeping the next and then so on. and i feel good and bad at the same time and like idk i am really emotional and also i feel really powerful but also not and ugh this is super hard to describe and like i am still struggling with self harm thoughts as well idk i have no clue what is going on and i mean i dont really care what anyone wants to call it but what the heck do i do? my gp cant really help with this and i cant meet the new psychologist until april so like that is a long time away but also not and i am trying to stay distracted but then also things are really hard but also ugh never mind anyone got any ideas. also sorry if this makes no sense i am a little weird right now.