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Feeling very low

QueenieSenior Contributor17 Feb 2019, 8:20 pm AEDT

Feeling very low

My friends and my family, I feel, could do better without me in their lives. They are throwing a party while I’m in respite and I’m not invited. My promised birthday gift isn’t coming now as it was sold to someone else. If I still want what I was going to be given, I was told to buy it myself. I get bullied by the mrs about my former drug use. It makes me wonder if they actually do care or only care when it is convenient for them.

It shouldn’t matter but it hurts.

I’m a loser anyway. I just feel like running away.

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CheerBearSenior Contributor17 Feb 2019, 8:50 pm AEDT

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@Queenie 😔 You're really having a hard time at the moment it seems. That sounds so lonely and rough.

You're not a loser, though I see how the actions of others might be making you feel like that.

Lots of caring from here, wishing you felt more of it from those important to you in your life ❤

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QueenieSenior Contributor17 Feb 2019, 9:07 pm AEDT

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Personally I cannot wait for respite @CheerBear . We haven’t had any fights but somehow I think space is needed.

You mmentioned loneliness, I think I am pretty lonely. I spend night after night crying 😢 but nobody notices here at home.

Thank you for thinking of me.

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CheerBearSenior Contributor17 Feb 2019, 9:12 pm AEDT

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How long until respite @Queenie? Feeling so low that you're crying at home but not having anyone notice would be so lonely. So sorry 🙁

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Dani_MurrayContributor18 Feb 2019, 1:06 am AEDT

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Hi, it sounds like you are really going through a difficult time. I hope your mood has lifted a little today. It sounds like your family is not being supportive. You cannot control what they think, say and do. You can only control your own thoughts and behaviours. Try to be a little kinder to yourself and instead of beating yourself up with "I'm a loser anyway," say "I am getting better every day in every way. I am changing my life around." (use your own words, of course). All the very best with the respite stay, and remember to focus on what you can control.

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Unknown userMember18 Feb 2019, 9:39 am AEDT

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Hey there @Queenie just checking in to see how you are travelling today? Sounds like you've had a heavy few days.

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QueenieSenior Contributor18 Feb 2019, 4:45 pm AEDT

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Hey @CheerBear I disappear on Friday for a week hopefully. It is pretty lonely here with no friends who visit. I sit in my room and listen to music and just cry 😢 most nights. Maybe the heart will grow fonder in my absence?

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QueenieSenior Contributor18 Feb 2019, 4:51 pm AEDT

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Hi @Former-Member today anxiety has the better of me. I feel like I’m going to be sick but keep trying to breathe around it. It was a college day today and thankfully I got through it. Tomorrow I’m doing a major assessment very nervous!

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CheerBearSenior Contributor18 Feb 2019, 4:53 pm AEDT

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Not too long to go @Queenie. Really hope the break is helpful for you.

🙁 That sounds sad and I hope your people are kinder to you soon. Would there be anyone in respite you could talk to about what home is like for you and maybe have a family meeting (or something like that)?

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor18 Feb 2019, 5:37 pm AEDT

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@Queenie

Good Luck with handing in, or getting more time for your assignment.

You have achieved a great deal even if the Mrs and kids do not always see it.

Getting off drugs is no easy matter. You Rock!

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QueenieSenior Contributor18 Feb 2019, 5:58 pm AEDT

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I’m reluctant to call a family meeting @CheerBear @as it seems like an opportunity for everyone to name call and blame me. I was left feeling very bad after the last one. I do go to relationship counselling with my Mrs, but it seems all about I’m the one who withdraws and is a general bitch to her. Not that I’m calling my wife a bitch, far from it. We had this exercise where we had to write down what we thought of our partners, the worst I said was silly and selfish at times. The Mrs said a lot of four lettered words. I know she loves me but just puts me last every time.

I cannot wait for respite as at least I am spoken to.

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