Today's session with psych

I so agree that psychotherapy is for US. It is important to take froma session what you can, and as time passes you may look back on that session and gain insights that you did not have at the time.

What I gain from your intial post @BlueBay is that you were authentic about both your pain and sense of betrayal and anger in your session. Incredibly draining as it is in the moment, the courage it takes to experience both, and the courage to post and articulate it, will ultimately be empowering for you.

I have a sense of serious betrayal by my mother. Last night I was out to dinner with a group and one of them knew my mother, (had studied music with her). I ended up being true to myself, called her a tall skinny blonde, who always had to be top dog. I didnt magnify her in my mind or in my responses, the way she always wanted us to. I didnt tear up or get angry, though I have done all those things in the past. I didnt let it wreck my evening. There were many other great conversations last night and I was on my turf, and my daughter's turf ... but that is another story entirely.

warm regards

Apple

Hi @MoonGal

Thank you for your support. I am trying to not think about my parents but sometimes its hard. i can go through for a while without any worry but then something will happen or a thought will pop up or eg.mothers day now brings up emotions. The way you described my pain is so right - an arrow through my heart.

I feel for you too with your abuse. I understand the pain. I just hope that one day I can let go of this huge pain i have and live a much better, quieter, happy life. I still feel so stuck that i sometimes just don't know how to let go. How do you let go of the pain tht someone who i thought would be caring and supportive abandon me? I don't know; still need to work on this.

To @Appleblossom @Decadian @Former-Member @Former-Member @MoonGal

Thank you so much to each and everyone of you for your support and replies. I am so glad that i have found this forum.

Until I read some of your posts, I always thought I was the only one who had problems with their parents - but now I realise that no I am not the only one; there are so many people suffering, hurting from their parents comments, behaviour or abandonment.

I still don't know how to let go the pain I feel. I guess i need to work on this.

Take care

@BlueBay - "I still don't know how to let go..."

I imagine that life is a river and whatever I am hanging on to (and weighing me down) as a big rock. I practice letting go of that huge lump of burdensome rock, and popping to the surface (of the river/life) and starting to go with the flow, safely swimming my own path.