Two steps forward and three back

Or that at least is how it feels. Half way thro a new group, and a new awareness is emerging. My sensitivities rejection, criticism and the big one abandonment. So as a result of of these things hapenin, or should i say the fear of them hapening, i withdraw. And it hapens without me even realising it.

So ive been trying to adress some of this. Some of it has been successful. But now because of a number of thing happening over the weekend and tonight. I feel like ive lost it alll again. Reason mind is trying to tell me i havent lost it all. I have gained more awareness, which is a good thing right?

I see my psychiatrist tomorrow . And right now i feel very confused about alot of things. I dont know how i am going to address three or four major issues with him.