Wow! Spin!
[Sprints in Silenus-style with a huge hug, all whilst juggling kittens, boxes of chocolate, and bowls of chicken soup for the soul]
Firstly... Spin... oh my goodness... so many achievements, so many hurdles leaped over, in these past 5 or so years... wow... respect... you are the bomb...
Secondly, so sorry to hear the pendulum has swung from curse to gift and back to curse... we know well these terrible cycles, those of us with mental health challenges...
But it fills my heart with hope to read between the lines of your words, Spin... your tone, your mood, it feels quite positive, and very resilient... you've been to hell's waiting room before, and you are familiar with it... and I don't doubt that you've expanded your toolbox with coping mechanisms and wellness strategies, learned from years in the trenches...
It's awesome you reached out, Spin... we are all here for each other...
I keep coming back to these words... we are not mentally ill... we are merely on the edge of the human experience..
Hugs and happy vibes beaming your way...