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hmm @Former-Member it wasnt like that at all .. that stuff I get from family lol .. he was actually genuine and was saying it because he cared. And, no that's fine, have had this stuff all my life, this guy was the exception, and some thought they were helping and I was never sure they werent just trying to rub my face it in dunno.

yes, circle of people in regular or even semi regular contact with keeps shrinking with time, they move on, get ahead, get on with life, possibly still care on some level, just cant associate as they see that where my life has ended up is completely my fault; am some sort of 'bad' 'stupid' person, and well they have no idea what goes on my head.. and re friends ..I ain't rushing out to get new ones lol

Boy, where did that come from .. anyway, thanks for sharing and as you said I will get there, dont care about anything else except some level of 'happy' and a better level of coping with life these days ..phew

I am OK though, its just a bit like 'what next' at moment..

.. and I did have a good day today and big parts of yest, had company yest, brother sent me some music un asked, which turned into a nightmare of converting files, trying to get things that dont really want to talk to each other to talk to each other, and opened up a can of worms re where some things are or aren't re files even though can see them .... still .. it worked, and have been listening to it over and over as I do lol @Former-Member and the 'no obs' was my line ..haha lol Thanks for chat, not wanting to keep you up. And tomorrow's another day ..

that sounds sad @Former-Member . are you sure they 'follow' you re fb posts? I dont follow some people and pretty sure lots dont follow me .. very brave re meds, they serve a purpose, but bit hard on the body, guessing

Night and night to anyone who's still up

well that's a pity re fb friends @Former-Member and it was nice chatting ..thanks

Hi @Former-Member

I am okay - having a quiet day yesterday was necessary and enforced by horrific weather here - I had to either go out and buy a new shirt or wash one I had here - and the rain kept me from doing either

The funeral is tomorrow - I have three pairs of smart new trousers - and I guess I will have to wear a jacket so no one will notice that the shirt I have is not a new one or the good one I have that has not yet been washed so therefore not the one I am wearing - I am sure people will be more concerned with the funeral as it should be -

Anyway - I shall leave tomorrow to look after itself - after all - I really know that people are more concerned about how they look themselves than care about what other people are wearing

If I keep on about this I am wasting my time - let's get with thinking about my bookcase in the bedroom - I decided to clear it out yesterday and it will look better but I have all these books I don't need - packing them up into bags for the op-shop is a better thought

Thanks for asking - I am sick and tired of winter - I want to send the weather back - I did not order this and unfortunately there is no return address on the weather

I hope you are okay - okay is a good word for the day for most of us

Dec

I love it that there is a candle burning for me right now @Former-Member - I believe in candles

The family - oh yes - I do get along well with my father's family - they will not critisize my clothes - or if they do and it all stays in the privacy of their own mind I really don't care - I did look through my clothes and I found a very suitable shirt - and I have washed the shirt I would rather wear - that will be fine - let's not stress about it

But TS is not someone I can be relaxed around - I don't intend to speak to her unless she is right in front of me and I will always be polite - buit I feel I have to ask her while she did not ring me with the news our aunt had died - what is wrong with the woman - rather she left it go my daughter to be the bearer of bad news -

I did not understand TS at all - I am not in a hurry to see her but that's because she is toxic - I don't feel the same way - and asking people "why" they do or not do something is pointless - rather tell her she could have rung me personally - after all - I could have learned the news on Facebook - and that would have been a blast

I learned relaxation massage - I did not practise except on my fellow students and some friends but I know the shoulder well - I feel like a rotator cuff expert - both of my shoulders have been injured - so I know how it works - so if you can - Imagine my magic fingers getting into the sore bits with the tiger balm - I know exactly where you would like it soothed - I am sorry this can only be a virtual massage

Thanks for your soothing thoughts - tomorrow will come to pass like any other day - and I have a very nice frozen dinner in the freezer - I forget what it is but I like it -

Thanks @Former-Member

Decadian