abusive family

Today my adult son who has been manipulated @& brainwashed against me his entire life by my narcissitic mother ( who's died) & her very evil narcissitic husband-& his absent father & his toxic family- told me he wished I had died instead of my mother- it would have made everyone's life better including my own- that my mother was more of a mother to him than I was- he absolutely hates me & wishes I was dead- & so so much more hurtful & disgusting things-I just feel like giving up-his perception of reality is so skewed from other toxic people's influence he can't even see reality for what it is/was - I then had to go visit my lifelong abusive father in hospital which was very triggering for me as he does not speak up to the nurses he gets aggressive & expects them to read his mind - he was also being very rasist to the nurses when they weren't in the room which just makes me feel sick- watch my beautiful daughter care for him & look after him without being asked to the best of her ability at 7 years old & with an open heart & he was getting so angry because he is in pain & frustrated & taking it out on her & me & triggering me from my childhood- I don't know how I am supposed to help & support him when he gets out of hospital when I have agoraphobia & can barely take care of my daughter & myself & he has no one else so it is left to me- he has not had any at home care for over 20years after a stroke because the nurse assessing his living arrangements said he wasn't in need enough & there are worse ppl off than him- so his house is an absolute nightmare & so dangerous, unclean& he has become a horder-this is all going to be left to me to sort out?I live over an hour away it just seems completely impossible & I just don't want to deal with this reality anymore - I don't know who to talk to about this to get support/ help in place for him when he gets out because I can't realistically do it - it just won't work-