Missy862Casual Contributor
Newly diagnosed
Good Morning,
Ive recently become sick in the past 12 month. What started as depression (psychotic or melancholic depending on the Dr I saw) turned into constant debilitating panic attacks, then impressive anxiety and an eventual diagnosis of Bipolar II.
It's so strange for me, as before these past months I was social, had friends, was ridiculously energetic and optimistic, then now, Im lile a different person..
Sometimes I think the diagnosis sounds right, and othertimes I'm not so sure.
When I was sick (5 weeks hospital) I had isolated myself so much, that when I had strong suicidal thouggts, I reached out to friends in the time, who yes spoke to me in the moment, however never checked in again in the coming days or weeks at all. Which just makes me feel stupid and completely alone.
My Drs think that with the work i did (now cant do anymore) the amount of prolonged stress and genetic vulnerability switched on the bipolar...
I definitely feel at the very least something broke in my brain.
I am up and down so fast it is ridiculous. . Whe I'm happy I dont feel "hypermanic" as I used to be so positive and active, but I do have extremely clear ideas which I think are the best and I go over the top with them... the after a week I can't be bothered with it.
My brother is telling my mum that I shouldn't be encouraged with the ideas I come up with...
I don't know. I just dont get any of it.