I feel like an entitled brat

I have everything going for me - well not everything or else I wouldn't be here would I ?

I'm sick of feeling underaccomplished and pathetic. I don't know what I have to do to get anywhere. I'm trying to find jobs overseas and I've barely scratched the surface. I've applied for one thing, and probably won't even get that. Judging by how competitive everything is these days... let alone in another country..

I'm sick of all of this stuff. Mental health has held me back too much.

I feel this is just a waste of my time. Better off dead. I'm over people's maxims about how it will work out and how things come around.... who said that was the rule?

Anyways. Just ranting. But I'm also very tired of all of this and getting bored with myself..