AudreyContributor
Well this couldn’t be less fun....
My partner and I have been together for 10 years, he has had anxiety and depression the whole time, and it’s been rough on and off. He’s had a number of psychologists and was on medication, but it really didn’t work for him, so he’s been managing things through more holistic methods. The last year has been rough, lots of health issues etc. but things are just spiralling and I’m feeling exceptionally alone- and to be frank - I’m running out of compassion and when he’s in a bad place, I just can’t help but get my back up and fight back. I’m angry, really angry and I feel like he is placing all of the blame at my feet. And I’m exhausted. And every time I try to get a break it means I’m selfish. And of course- where he’s at right now - well it’s all about what’s wrong with me. I’m not perfect, but also it’s always about his needs, what I have to change, how I’m not supporting him. And anytime I have a rough day it’s like I’m not entitled because his life is so much worse than mine so I just need to suck it up, Fox my issues and then it will all be fine. I don’t know what I’m expecting from posting. I guess partly it was just that I needed to get it out of my head, to help release some of my anger and frustration.
