too much going on this week!

I am panicking about this week, i feel really physically week and shaky today, but i think its just that i'm letting myself get overwhelmed and I'm trying to break things down into manageable pieces. I have parent/tch interviews for three nights, a telemed appt with my psychiatrist to review my back to work stuff and meds, and then a trip to the capital city which will be a 14 hour round trip there and back (have to get home for the kids that night so have to do it in one day) for a family court ordered psychiatric review and I'm so scared about that. I'm terrified of what somone might say after meeting me for 1 hour and reviewing lots of writing/reports, court trial, and affadavits from my ex that are full of lies. the psychiatric review doesnt even include any documents from my current psychiatrist because that could bias his opinion.

I'm not sure how to get through everything and it feels like it never ends. just goes on and on. I'm terrified of this report saying i have '....' something or other and what that might mean for family court considering if i am a 'good' mother, (my children are well looked after!!) and b what it'll mean for my job if iget an official diagnosis of some other thing. at the moment i am dx as major depression and ptsd.

lj