How easy it is to fall..

I joined the carers forum and here I am on the Lived Experience forum...only a few months back I felt that I was managing, juggle full time work, family, multi-tasking, not taking a breath, carrying whatever landed on me..I've been doing it for years..never think to slow down or stop. I'd been working long hours in an exhausting work environment at the best of time, handed new assignment, trying to close out others..they kept telling me don't worry you'll handle it (because I always do you see),, never say no...the more they said this the more I became fearful of not handling anything.. but I kept pushing through and not once did I stop..though I was exhausted. At the same time one of my children was struggling, I tried but nothing I did was helping (which is why I joined the carers forum). I felt I was failing .. and so all these balls I thought I could juggle fell out... I became anxious about everything, my heart raced day and night,I couldn't sleep - I felt badly overwhelmed... finally I called time out from work .. saw a doctor, I took a week out thinking all would be fine and jumped back in.. It was worse - I felt even more overwhelmed, emotional, paralyzed - I was forgetting things, I was meant to be leading people though I could hardly manage myself, I felt traumatised. People kept telling me I was doing ok but I was not ok. I froze up and stopped communicating and my job is primarily to communicate. I've stopped seeing family, my friends, I've cried a lot, have slept very little. I feel incapable of anything ...I've sought support from the GP & am now seeing a psychologist... I have taken time out again from work.... I am trying to do everything my psychologist advises. taking walks, trying sleeping tablets to sleep, taking medication, trying to eat, meditating, practicing mindfulness, making lists, trying not to be hard on myself and to see the positives...spiraling out of control was so unexpected and easy...it's like I watched myself going through this but I wouldn't or couldn't make my mind shift back..I don't know why...so now I have the hard work to get better for myself and my family