I hear you @eudemonism

No romance more of a bromance ... but I am girl ...we are in Australia ... so maybe its a matemance 

I always thought you made a lot of sense. I am very used to being a round a lot of paranoid people, and it has been far too long for me to get pulled into anyone person's paranoia, but I do strongly empathise with the experience, and strongly believe that there are always reasons.

The new fields of nueroscience and TRAUMA work are so important. The mind will do loop the loop until the job is done ... bring the situation back to consciousness if we or others try to suppress it.
My mind is doing that too.

It is ultimately a healing process, but yes sometimes we get stuck, repeat ourselves and others cant be bothered to walk with us while we figure it out.

Sometimes I have found that I have to consciously, ambivalently, repeat myself one last time ... as if to check something out ... and then I am done with that particular problem.

Sometimes I get an inkling that it is the final ironing out of a wrinkle ...

I have known far too many schizophrenics to really believe in it as an absolute condition ... only as a label .... they are all too unique ... the similarity of symptoms ... seems superficial.

Hope you get back into your drives to beaches and photography with Dog .. and whatever else works well.
