Hi @JennaMagot,
Welcome to the forums. I'm sorry to hear that things have been so hard for you lately. What you describe sounds scary. It also sounds like you are managing multiple mental health challenges concurrently. When this is the case, sometimes it can be hard to pin point which condition is primarily responsible for the symptoms that one is experiencing, and this in turn can make it harder to try and find the right treatment pathway.
Reaching out and asking for tips here is a great way of lightening the burden of trying to figure all of this out on your own. You have also probably helped to make others feel less alone, so thank you!
Do you have a professional support team behind you? If things have started to become more difficult recently, letting your support team know what's going on can be useful. It can also be a sign that maybe you need more professional and or social support than you are currently getting....