AttahuaSenior Contributor
Partner has schizoeffective disorder and rapidly becoming unwell
Why this illness for us always seems to rear its ugly head on a weekend I will never understand!!! Doesn't it know the mental health team don't work on a weekend??? Doesn't it know family interstate are happy to give advice but not willing to jump on a plane and be here for their own son because it's an inconvenience!!! Doesn't it know that in reality and despite what we all like to say....we are in actual fact alone!!!!! Once again i am in this situation , yes I choose to be in it because my partner of Dix years is a beautiful person but he has a brain disease and most of the time his schizoeffective disorder is only a very small part of who he is but today it's a huge part and it is increasing in size as every day passes, I have never known a weekend to pass so slowly! My saving grace is that tomorrow is Monday and for the first time in his life living with this illness he has actually agreed to take himself to his doctor for a 'top up!'If he doesn't have this he will inevitably be hospitalised like every other time but this time we both want it to be different. He is still able to hold a rational conversation and agree with me that he is becoming unwell... yes he may also being agreeing to appease me but that's fine...just like he says he is only going to see his doc tomorrow to keep ME out of hospital... that's fine too if that's what it takes to get him to comply!!!! I am exhausted, he rambles, I don't want to hear about the berry growing in our yard that is the cure for cancer, I am tired of hearing how lemon peel in his tobacco pouch is helping him smoke less or that we are going to be richer than we could ever imagine after he has built the engine that runs on water only.......yes my partner is a qualified mechanical engineer and can fix anything, even built his own drilling rig for opal mining but enough is enough.... Sorry to sound selfish but I am tired of hearing about it all and just responding with.... That's your reality but it's not mine.... He is okay with that response as we have discussed possible responses when he was well!! Today he finally admitted to hearing voices so once again Monday for me cannot come quick enough sling with another depot!!!!! Sorry to put it all out there but in reality I am alone, his family pretty much don't want the inconvenience and I font want our friends to see him unwell so we are alone!
