Hello?

Hi @Jumpingcactus

My day was a shit fest to put it mildly... I'm just glad to be a home in my safe space.

Hi @bean thankyou,hope yours is going alright too

Did you have to venture out side today @bean

@Bill16

Yeah I did... I had to pretend to be a normal functioning adult for the day, I'm exhausted now.

@bean it's f@#%in draining ay

@Bill16

Way more than it really should be, but that's just the reality.

I hear ya @bean

@bean Sorry to hear that. I get days like that and want to be by myself so much so I researched my habits and sort of figured out I could be an introvert. Here’s hoping tomorrow is promising for you.

@Jumpingcactus

Thanks... I have known for a very long time that I am an introvert, I much prefer to spend time alone than to be with people. I so hate small talk and awkward silences.

@bean I enjoy my time alone, but then I question why I like it so much and figured out I was just safer that way because I don’t have to act normal and pretend nothings wrong, it’s gets me exhausted. Then I get angry with myself because I want to be social and happy and content, but then I get in a social situation and can’t hold conversations or remember conversations because deep down I’m too worried about how I’m perceived or if I’m holding up the normal facade good enough. I don’t tend to open up to family or friends anymore, it’s not that they don’t care, it’s just that I feel nothing gets rid of the pain of depression and learnt over time it’s not worth it. Just get labeled as the one that didn’t think right, not rational so won’t bother with what she has to say type of mindset. Well that’s the impression I see anyway.