WhiteknightSenior Contributor
Time to move on
Hi all,
I joined this great forum many months ago after 4 years as a peer advisor on another MH forum.
What has changed in me recently is that through my 6000 posts previously and many here to, I feel emotionally matured and that means the next step is to move on, leave this forum and try to lead a life without MH topics as part of my daily life.
It doesnt mean I'm 100%, nor less fragile but it does mean I've made sufficient progress with my mental well being that I can live my life without delving into the complexities of mental illness.
I'm writing this so you can hopefully, one day, recognize your own progress in a similar way. It is certainly something I'd recommend because mental illness feels like a state of mind that will never reach that point.
"That point" your aim, is a state whereby you are reasonably stable in life and to give stability to your loved ones. Where, finally your mental illness is second or third on your list of priorities.
Never give up on yourself. When you say that to yourself all the time it sinks in. Be proud that you try hard even when you dont succeed, try again...and again. The mental mountain is a tall one.
My last comment is this one. An old lady 30 years ago pushed a shopping trolley along a laneway in Melbourne when she fell over. All her items spilled onto the bluestones. I helped her pick them up. Among them was a birthday card. I asked her who's birthday it was. "It's my birthday" she answered. As I walked her back to her flat I learned that she was 94yo and indeed she had purchased herself her own birthday card as she had no family. Her small flat was filled with statues of Jesus, Mary and churches.
She had no family but as I found...she was not alone. She held her faith.
I'm an atheist. My faith is in myself. Whatever your faith is, hold it close and never let it go.
Whiteknight
