Letter to my abuser (triggering)

(This may be triggering)

A letter to my brother who sexually abused me when I was 9-12 yrs old -

Dear (brother)

I am writing to you to tell you that I hate you for what you did to me as a child. You abused me when I was an innocent young girl. You took away my childhood my memories of my childhood. I am so damn sngry at you for what you did to me and you got away with it. Hiw could you? How dare you do this? Do you think it would never affect me. Well I’ll tell you how it’s affected me. I’m suffering depression, anxiety, complex ptsd and BPD all a result of what you did to me. And while you live your life I am the one suffering deeply having therapy snd on many medications which you have no idea. I’ve spent hundreds of dollars in therspy but what do you care. You make me sick with your pathetic excuse of a brother. I’ve self harmed many times to get rid of my pain snd even thought of suicide to get rid of the visual memories and pain of what you did to me. But what do you care.

Brothers snd family don’t do things like this - abuse their little sister. What gave you the right to take advantage of an innocent child. I was a young girl.

I never want to see you again. I’m not sure I csn ever forgive you fir you have ruined my life as I struggle still.

And I will never forget what you did. I still visualise what you did to me all those years ago. I cry snd cry for that little child in me for what she has lost over the years and she csnt get it back. You have taken away so much. You are lucky that I haven’t told Mum snd dad but you never know one day I may just tell them.

You go live your life the way you want and I will continue my journey of recovery.

Your sister who is totally heart broken sngry and lost with life

(now I’m crying. This has taken a lot of courage for me to write. But I needed to do it fir my therspy session).

I’m sorry if I have triggered anyone.

@Former-Member if this is not allowed on here pls let me know.