GhostContributor
My story
Hi everyone,
I am feeling a bit sorry for my self tonight and lonely. So I went looking for somewhere to get my thoughts out and found this forum. I care for three children and a husband, who all have ADHD. My husband has depression. My eldest has severe depression, anxiety, attempted suicide last year and is attempting to sit HSC. My middle child has anxiety and my youngest doesn't yet have a disgnosis but has big emotional outbursts. One out burst just finished and it was on and off for two hours. And my husband is being retrenched.
No-one other than my family's large medical support team, now counting 5 psychologists, 2 psychiatrists, two GPs and a paeditrician know everything. I see a psychologist to help me understand and cope with my responsibilities and some friends know some things but my family values their privacy and mental illness is stil a stigma.
So discussing how things are really is hard.
To the world out there I want to say Life sucks. Money is about to get really tight, my husband is wrapped up in his depression, we might have to sell our home and my kids set each other off. I work 30 hours a week and every day I expend large amounts of emotional energy managing outbursts and symptoms of mental illness.
I know I don't get control any of this and I know I am doing the best I can. But sometimes I want a break, a realignment of the stars and someone to share load.
Tonight is one of those times. Thank you for listening. Now its off to bed, to start afresh tommorrow.
It sounds like you and your family have been through a lot, and that these recent events and the fight particularly have had a huge impact on you. It is great you have found the forums and I hope this is a really supportive space for you.
