I am not my mother 😅

Today I had what was a rather harrowing session with a senior diagnostic psychiatrist. I expected it would be hard, but it was so much more difficult than anything if done in a very long while. For some time I have been worried that I was beginning to show signs of developing traits experienced by my own mother. On top of the issues I've already raised here, I was concerned that some recent odd behaviours might be signs of one of my mother's raft of MIs; particularly bpd/ bipolar/ narcissistic p d/ schizoid p d.
Whilst I have respect for those here who live with these issues, I was extremely relieved that this clinician was able to put my mind at ease. I am *simply* having some extreme reactions to surviving immense levels of trauma throughout my life, some of which are being reawakened as I parent a peri-pubescent child with exceptionally challenging behaviours including but not limited to autism, severe anxiety and sensory overload, OCD, and passive aggression.
The clinician believes that as an "extremely diligent" parent, I have not had enough support, but that I am actually doing a great job under trying conditions. And that my efforts are saving a lot of government money now and possibly millions long term through my attempts to get my rugrats' life skills competencies to wider social expectations.
Whilst this compliment does not have me running around high fiving (I am hard on myself and find accepting compliments especially difficult) it does relieve me that there is some meaningfulness to my life, and whatever else I may do Wrongly, at least I am giving my kids the very best mothering I can. Thank you for "listening". I am finding writing to this forum very cathartic, as I do not easily talk about this stuff in my day to day world.