Thanks @Appleblossom,
Yes, I didn't actually remember making those posts ;-?
I had a very rough time, going up to visit family and deciding to open the door to some very long repressed anger. It was difficult but ultimately a pretty important learning experience. The anger had lingered in the background as some terrifying 'other self' but it's pretty much just passed now with a lot more clarity. It's about the first time in my life I have just not felt angry anymore as opposed to pushing the anger away/down because it felt terrifying and/or wrong.
I'm a bit cringing at the venom in those posts, so my apologies if they came across badly.
I wasn't sure from your post if you were saying life wasn't getting any simpler because you were busy a lot, or because there was such an abundance of alternatives or because psychological formulation didn't really answer anything for you?
To be honest, if it was the latter I didn't get much out of it either, except a moment of gratification at the principle. I mentioned it to my psychiatrist and we tried it and it proceeded to be quite frustrating and simplistic 😉 Things have been getting slowly simpler for me as they slowly find their place a bit more organically, without preconceptions although reading all of these things does help a lot with developing lots of different perspectives, each one seems somehow validating and another piece of the puzzle.
how have things been going for you?