Life fails!

how was your week @Queenie

We discussed the big S @Shaz51. Interesting and somewhat triggering subject but for some reason I've gone up instead of down. Not that I mind, I love going up up up! It's the downside I hate. Who cares if I play music a little too loud and turn my lifestyle into a one woman party-a-thon? It's better than being doped to the eyeballs and depressed.

Fantastic week all round? How about yourself my friend?

Who cares if I play music a little too loud, my mr shaz is playing his music very loud last night and today @Queenie

my week was up and down , but thinking now it was okish

I was rejected to receive carer`s allowance to look after my mum , but I am happy to care for her for nothing xx

It's werid how they work out who is eligible for the carer's allowance @Shaz51. My Mrs receives it for caring for me and it was as simple as stating to our GP just how much I rely on her and what exactly she does for me. Centrelink approved it no worries. Shame you didn't receive it, I'm sure you do a lot for your Mum and I'm sure she appreciates it too. x

I Just got told off on another website (a chat room) for being annoying. I'm not annoying am I? Please tell me honestly? I don't understand why people must be so cruel to others.

Really feeling it. 😞 I'm still buzzing a thousand miles an hour but now I wish I wasn't. This is enjoyable anymore!

I've come down with an almighty thud! I did study today and finish an assignment but for some reason I didn't put my heart and soul into it like I would normally like to. Sociology is usually a really interesting subject and talking about stratification, generation X, Baby Boomers and Millennials and sociological factors which affect all these things. I feel like an utter failure. I want to give up and hide in bed (unrealistic I know). I had a massive argument with the Mrs tonight and everyone automatically made me out to be the bad person and jumped down my throat too. It felt like I had no allies in life and that brought me down with a thud. Before I felt ten foot tall and bulletproof, now I feel so alone in this world. It is like if push came to shove, I've got nobody to back me up. I don't feel abandoned, I just feel lonely.

You are not annoying @Queenie, never

we love you here and I love chatting with you daily my awesome friend

and I mean this with all my heart xxx

and did you say were feeling unwell @Queenie, got a cold

that would not help if you don`t feel 100% my friend

Hey @Shaz51, I am still recovering from the cold/flu nastiness, yes. I have been getting into arguments all the time with my Mrs lately, especially over the amount of sleep I've been getting recently. This wasn't what tonight's argument was about however @outlander, it was about an event I had planned all year due to fall on next Sunday. My Mrs then pipes up and reminds me it is the NRL grand final and that nothing can happen on that day because of it. This event I had planned I had been looking forward to for some time and now the whole thing is in jeopardy because of the bloody grand final! I argued my point and my Mrs has the point back that she has been a football fan for years and cannot miss for the grand final for me (despite the fact her team isn't even in it). I feel totally let down and like I am not allowed to have an opinion at all. This happens every single time we have an argument, everyone takes her side and then jumps down my throat. There is never a compromise. I was trying to come up with compromises and saying I'll switch my event to earlier in the day (I've got tickets to the theatre was going to go out with my cousin beforehand), but she just went ballistic. It is so isolating and depressing. I'm not buzzing anymore and I just feel like nobody wants me around. I feel like I am spiralling downwards and nobody here in my offline world wants to help.