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I am not me anymore and it hurts

Eden1919Senior Contributor23 July 2018, 1:41 pm AEST

I am not me anymore and it hurts

I can't make the nightmares stop I just want to sleep in peace but I will never be in peace again not after what they did to me it wasn't even worth it I shouldn't be alive I shouldn't be they hurt me but I am the one who got in trouble I am the one who got punished they finally broke me I tried so hard to hold it together to not let them get to me but they just broke me piece by piece and took the pieces away so that I can never find them again they can't be put back together either there is no more glue I used it up already trying to repair the last lot of damage they did and the time before that.... I can't do this anymore I don't want to there is nothing here for me but pain and suffering I can't keep fighting I don't have anything left in me to fight with I am just a broken shell slowly crumbling I really can't do this anymore it won't stop.

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In response to: I am not me anymore and it hurts

Unknown userMember23 July 2018, 2:01 pm AEST

Re: I am not me anymore and it hurts

Thins are feeling really painful at the moment @Eden1919. You've done well to reach out for peer support. If you need more immediate help, please contact Lifeline on 13 11 14 or 000 in an emergency. I've sent you an email to check in 🌻

In response to: I am not me anymore and it hurts

Unknown userMember23 July 2018, 8:22 pm AEST

Re: I am not me anymore and it hurts

Yes you can. You can keep going

@Eden1919 The words in this post are very much relatable to how I feel and I’ve often expressed the same thoughts to others.

You need to find something to give you every reason not to give up.

Here if you need to talk

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