Life lessons, undiagnosed properly, and my psychotic symptoms. This is my story.

When I was diagnosed with drug-induced psychosis in a psych ward, I never really believed it to be true. I always thought I had depression.

I was taking drugs for a couple of years before I was admitted. I was also in a domestic violent relationship. I had an abortion, too. GROWING up, in hindsight, I feel I never really concentrated to what was said on TV shows, or movies. I had bad attendance most of my high school years, didn't work until the age of nineteen after I finished high school, and still had bad attendance in my jobs.

I loved watching movies, which is why I believed I never went to school. Or, it was because I was never the learning or studious type. I had a social life, up until I was really sick and relapsed after I stopped taking my medication.

I have had psychotic symptoms for years, even though they have changed overtime. I used to have auditory and visual hallucinations, now I have angry outbursts, hear voices very rarely on the tv from the actual people on the programs, flashbacks from the past which result in feelings of hurt and anger, and yelling/arguing, crying, child-like behaviour, unwanted, unhealthy thoughts, using manipulative, reassuring sentences as a result of these thoughts, I'm anti-social, poor-hygiene, hardly do any chores, or have the desire/want to do anything (literally), sleep problems.

I'm at university now, and I don't have bad attendance, but I did take a year off. I was told I had Schitzophrenia in the past because a family member had it. I see a psychiatrist, and I must admit that I'm much better than before. He says I have a psychotic illness.

But what kind? I really think it's something other than psychosis, but I could be wrong? I take anti-psychotics, but I've stopped taking anti-depressants.

Has anyone had similar experiences, or symptoms? I'd like to connect, or maybe learn more, and find out what I really have.