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Enough is enough
I wasn't entirely sure which topic to put this under so hopefully this is okay.
In another thread I mentioned that this year I need to claw my way back to where I was in early 2015 before everything fell apart for me. This isn't just something I want to do... I really have to do it or there will be no point to anything. My work/career is the reason I'm alive.
The problem is I'm actually quite scared that I won't be able to do it. I know I need to try to fill my mind with academic stuff and not shitty MH stuff. I need to ignore the noise and everything else and just focus on the big ideas. They used to be my reason for breathing and I know they can be again - I just need to immerse myself in them.
I'm doing better at that now than I was a couple of months ago but there is time pressure. I have deadlines. I need to get it together. Not slowly and steadily but right now.
Hopefully the audience in my head is listening :-s