TomskCasual Contributor
That time of night
Long term mental health issues and having a rough time of it lately. It's that time of night, between midnight and morning where everyone I know is asleep. Always a tough time for me, living alone and having no one to talk to - tonight though is a bit harder than usual. Anxiety, depression, sadness, loneliness - they all seem more opressively present tonight which is what has prompted me to go searching online for help or, at the very least, somewhere to just get some thoughts out.
I have a cat who is not well at the moment and chances are that is what has triggered this. I am well aware that my mental health problems have really shrunk my world and as a result this magnifies the effects of changes that will inevitably occur. I seem to be losing, more and more, the ability to deal with stress at any level. Loss and feeling alone in it all is certainly the hardest part.
anyways, not sure what I was hoping to achieve with this. Never been on one of these forums before. I was tempted to call a hotline but the thought of talking is causing additional stress so I thought maybe if I can just write something down in a public space it might ease my mind to make it a bit more bearable. y' know, make me feel like I am actually interacting with the world and doing/achieving something.
it is 3am here in Perth so I still have a ways to go. Still a really rough night, still feeling anxious, lonely and exhausted but I do feel a tiny bit better for writing something. Definitely better than doing nothing.
on the odd chance that anyone reads this - firstly, I hope it made some sense. Secondly, I hope your night is going ok and that you have the chance for some peacefull, restful sleep
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