Thank you @Mazarita, @Terry, @NikNik and @Former-Member.
@Terry - thank you for the phone number and advice. I havent always liked the psychologists I have worked with in the past but I am thankful that I have had quite a good experience with the mental health services I have accessd to date. It is sad to read that you, like others Im sure, have not. I am on medication but I think its keeping me awake at night so Ive become a bit reluctant and non-complient lately. Since moving I havent yet organized a GP (will explain that whole story below).
@Mazarita - once again you are a huge wealth of information and advice! Thank you! I really appreciate you writing out the information about medicare but also ways that have helped you access cheaper mental health services. I shall have a google and see what I can find out locally. Certainly bulkbilling psychologists/psychiatrists is something I never would have thought of.
@NikNik - I will get onto partners in recovery and see what I can find. Thank you. I will also do some google searches and see if there is any community based stuff around. I feel so out of the loop here, I have no friends and my family is quite difficult at the best of times.
@Former-Member in NSW I worked with a mental health nurse. (I dont think I can say what organization that was through can I? Anyway its not available in Tasmania - it does operate nationwide but the part I accessed was specially for rural and remote people) This was mainly over the phone but I did see her in person when I could. Our local town was many 100's of kms away. I had worked with her for 3 years - mainly CBT, ACT, mindfullness. She also helped me with the GP find a medication that was suitable. She was amazing with her help and support I was able to stop making myself vomit as a form of punishment. I had done that since I was 11 - over 10 years. Since moving home its happening a bit again which is a real shame. That was just one thing I achieved. There was lots. Thats the one Im most proud of.
Im not settling in very well. Im currently engaged in a webchat with eheadspace which is healping a little. Things are very hard at home, there is a lot of control issues and to an extent emotional abuse that goes on. I know what I am experiencing is nothing compared to what some do and it kills me to use up support services like eheadspace but tonight I just cant cope anymore.
I am looking into getting a GP asap - I have a chronic disease so I have to for that in the next 10-20 days so I can have the blood tests I need anyway. Its very hard, if I get into Uni I will be based at the other end of the state so its hard to set up anything if I have to move again in March. Im going to have to just bite the bullet and stop being scared. I have a few ideas of things to say and ask for now though from this thread so that is useful. I have to look at the positives and use them.