Please tell me the truth.

Hi @Eden1919 - I understand trust issues after what I have suffered at the hands of others. But it is knowing the difference of who we can trust and whom we can't. When we are having a psychotic episode, as you are presently, who we can't trust always "is our own thoughts". So that is why its fundamental in recovery from severe mental illness and psychosis to place our trust in good qualified medical professionals at this time who have no reason to hurt you. They are not evil @Eden1919 - and that's the truth. Let them help you as resistance will keep you unwell. The thoughts that your treating team are out to get you is lies. That is what you can't trust - those voices and thoughts. They are the result of a brain chemical imbalance and like anyone who is unwell - we need to place our trust in the best medical treatments available. And have "faith" in a better outcome.

Please mention these distressing thoughts to your psychiatrist, as then he/she can give you thenright adequate treatment and medication to keep your high anxiety down. It will calm your thoughts and distress helping you to think clearer and gain better results in therapy. Counselling is a must as well as medication for you @Eden1919 get better. But no one can help you unless you tell them what you are telling us here.

Glad to see you reaching out. You can trust me my friend - I will always be there for you doing my best to help and support. That's all I, all the kind, caring people here or your treating team can offer. There are good people in the world too my friend - you "can" trust them.

Thanks @Former-Member

Living in fear is a problem, but its even worse if we do not model adult and protective and intelligent responses to real threats and living in fear.

(I do not buy that threat is all in the mind for those with MI)

I did not know if I would survive after I moved into this house, I was that riddled with physical pain from my spinal issues and emotional pain. Living alone for 15 years meant that I have been able to separate those issues out. What triggers a neck event, which people are genuine and how far that goes etc etc ... we dont expect everyobody to save our lives, but just need to know how far to take things with various individuals.

Which of sons friends were not real friends etc.

I did run a small teaching practice and book groups from the local community centre in my house, so my son could see me socialising.

I dont know how old your kids are @Former-Member

Maybe you can find away when you are ready ... to show them some ways to interact without fear.

But the truth is a person can only do that, when the fear is reduced.

Take care ALL

Good to read that you felt calmer this morning @Eden1919 - as you had a good sleep and this gave your mind a break from your fears and worries. You began to dwell and believe the negative thoughts about the treating team hurting you again throughout the day and this is raising your anxiety and distress levels once again. The way to stop this is to tell your psychiatrist and medical team what is worrying you and describe these thoughts to them so they can offer you the best possible treatment to stop your mental anguish. They cannot do this if you don't tell them how you are really feeling and explain your symptoms to them.

I promise you they will not harm you but will help you the best they can. Please trust me.

This worry and fears your experiencing is part of your mental illness my friend and this is the insight you need to hang onto in order to get the proper treatment to feel better. If you can't do this then please ring lifeline, a mental health crisis line or 000. You are not alone.

@Eden1919

@TAB My neck issues re discs and go back 30 years.

Building on moments of calm help me get through the storms.