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Hi @Wanderer It sounds like you are having a couple of bad days there. It totally sucks to be feeling that way but it is good you can post here about how you are feeling. I am not on here as much because of work so sorry for the late reply.

It is good that you have somewhere to go when your house is sold - hoping the divorce is finalised quickly and also you find a new house for you and your daughter and don't have to live with your parents for too long.

I'll be around a little tonight and will check in to see how you are going later. Hoping today has been a little better for you

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sending you lots of hugs @Wanderer

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It is common that those closest to us can upset us so much @Wanderer They take their own fears and frustrations out on us simply because we are the closest and most forgiving and still love them despite their behaviour. That does not mean that it doesn't have a huge effect on us or that it is okay but it does go someway to explaining their behaviour.

It is horrible that you had such a bad day yesterday and I do hope today is a little easier on you. It is debilitating when those fears and anxieties take over and it makes it even worse when you have someone close to you treating you badly. If you have managed to get through today with a little less of those dissasociate or derealisation feelings then it is already a better day than yesterday. Hoping very much for you that the weekend is a lot better and you can start to feel more grounded and less physically ill - and hoping also that your daughter is a lot nicer to you.

Thinking of you @Wanderer

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@Wanderer It is hard when you have been hurt by those closest to you - you fear the inevitable happening again and can't get any enjoyment out of the nice things they do and say as a result. I understand that wall building - still do that to a certain extent with my family - that has improved of late though.

Not good that you are still feeling so down - selling the farm whilst necessary would be adding more pressure on you too - especially as you do not have a house of your own yet to move into. Go easy on yourself @Wanderer - you are doing the best you can do under the circumstances