I am- Overwhelmed & Traumatised I need your support!!

Thats ok @Former-Member
Hope your ok now ❤

I cant remember what i wanted to ask but if it pops up again ill ask. Attention span of a fish these days

How are you tonight? @Former-Member

Still here if you want to chat @Former-Member ...

@outlander<br>I couldn't come back, as the pain I was in was overwhelming me att, so I took my meds &amp; went to sleep on the recliner chair with my Fur Babies around me. I think they knew I was in pain. They would not leave me. I woke up &amp; 6:30 AM this morning. Then went &amp; brushed my teeth, took more pain meds, as the pain was far too much. (I did NOT exceed the dose)<br>I usually take much smaller doses, but this pain has been total agony, to say the least.<br>It's 10:22 AM now as I type to you, I would have slept until the afternoon, but this pain woke me up. Its not as bad thank GOD, but neither the less, its still agony :(<br>I can take pain meds now, as its been over 4 hours since the last meds.<br>I will take half my dose now, &amp; see if it helps me? I just took one pain tab, instead of 2, the prescribed script.<br>If I can rest, &amp; not do anything much today then maybe I will not have as much pain as yesterday. I don't think I can handle that amount of pain today, it was so depressing, &amp; made me very upset.<br>I am praying a lot at the moment, &amp; encouraging myself in GODS Word for healing. My strength has always been in positive thinking &amp; believing. <br><br>I will be listening to some music that I like today. There is a sketch which I would love to do. I just need to be able to use my hand properly . <br>I will give myself time for the med to work, then I will try &amp; sketch. If I succeed, I will go to the Art Thread &amp; post it for you to look at, ok. :)Love U!
Bella XO 🙂

Sorry about the messed up post, I had to remove a word. 😞

Thats ok @Former-Member you needed to look after yourself first.
I really hope the pain eases today.
Sometimes we need the full strength doses just to help get the pain and inflammation back under control.
Do you think its the cold making things flare up?

Have you thought about getting an electric blanket so that the cold air doesnt get to your joints so much?

Listening to music and rest sounds like a good idea. Wait and see how your hand is before drawing

@outlander
It could be the colder weather, & also my energy level is very high atm, so its frustrating me to not be able to do the things I know need doing. I don't want someone coming here to help me, as it will make me upset. I know I am not an invalide, I just need to get on top of all this shit, that I have been dished out, in my life.
I know there are ppl with much worse than I have, I am not meaning to feel so sorry for myself. I am so frustrated about being like this, I am going to search the internet, & find out more about the damage, & what works to help me. The Major Surgery, & Spinal, damage, took a far toll on me. I need to put it in the past now, & move on to a better future.
I'm sure 100% PTSD has a negative effect on any body part that is damaged. I'm going to research that too.
I will let you know what I find, if would like me too?
Bye 4 Now!
BBL xo 🙂
I will

I understand those frustrations @Former-Member and i dont think your feeling sorry for yourself. Your struggling and its ok to ask for help.

Have you thought about getting a psychologist even with phone or Skype options to talk about anything thats bothering you? You dont have to go it alone

Hows your pain tonight? @Former-Member

@outlander
Thank you, my darling friend for caring about me!
I am going to bed soon, it's 12:32 AM
I just checked in to SF quickly to see if you messaged me. I had a nice dinner, that I cooked & put in the fridge for last nite, in case I did not feel like making myself anything.
It was a good idea, as enjoyed it, & it was healthy for me. I took full strength pain meds so the pain was not too bad. I watch a good movie, did some research, & found that link I posted in CT. I hope you like it too.
I will do my sketching some time today.
I hope you are sleeping, or even resting as today is going to be very cold, if the weather forecast is correct.
Talk/type today sometime?
Love U Heaps!
Bella XO 🙂