Fear confusion and life

Such a brave honest post. @Mizou The flip side of fear is courage. Yes I have similar feelings.

Hi @Mizou

Thanks so much for sharing some of your story - it is very brave of you to be so open with the community.

While you said you don't fear death, it sounds like there is another part of you that is very concerned by this, and you're trying to find a way to cope with these feelings. Noticing this ambivalence demonstrates great strength and insight into your own internal experience, and that can be really helpful in figuring out how best to look after yourself, and pave your way towards recovery.

I imagine there are other members on here who have felt something similar, perhaps some of them will be able to share their experiences and coping strategies with you.

It is also lovely to hear that you have best friends around you who do not judge you, and accept you for who you are. That is another great resource to draw upon when you are feeling vulnerable. I am wondering, have you ever spoken to them about this particular struggle?

I'm curious, what would "letting go and living again" look like for you?

It is good that you have some good friends.

I think many people have these feelings and are trying to manage them .. often socially in various causes, groups, sports or entertainments. A lot of it becomes if there is time or it is appropriate to let others glimpse behind the masks.

I am less upset about the masks that people wear ... most people are struggling in one way or another. The forum is good in that it allows us to be direct about it.