Moving on is hard

I am sorry to hear about your relationship ending @Anna88. It must hurt that something as cruel as depression has torn the two of you apart. Depression sometimes causes the person living with the illness act totally out of character and they may lack insight that what they are doing was even hurtful. He might be under the impression what he did was the best option for him at the time. I know this as when I've hit depressive phases myself I've done and said some pretty hurtful things and pushed loved ones away.

I know many people on the forums can relate to what you've said here, so I hope you'll find the forums as supportive as I do.

Oh there's a lot of things I've regretted doing when I was unwell @Anna88. In a perfect world I'd still have contact with my family, my home and my job. I have none of these things now sadly. Most of it through no fault of my own directly, but indirectly a lot of it was by my own poor thought through actions (I told my employer about my illness).

I can't speak for your ex-partner, but I just wanted to let you know it is possible he has regrets too.

Hello @Anna88, have been thinking of you so much , sorry to hear about your relationship ending

we are here for you my friend , you are not alone , sending you hugs

*I've had about 3 nightmares this week about him having a new girlfriend and I wake up so upset and it kind of ruins my day because I keep thinking about it.*

to be honest, you've shocked me with these words. that's because this is the exact same way i feel about my girlfriend and these nightmares does not seem to stop. moving on is indeed hard!