Crisis :(

"Peace within" is something I aspire to as well, but only achieve here and there in moments.

I am learning to accept other negative states as part of the human condition which come and go.

Feelings are usually not static. In that sense we are not our feelings.

The experience of peace is something I do a lot of meditation with.

The mindfulness practices often talked about can be helpful in admitting the difficulty and truth of other feelings but not getting bogged down in them and helping us snatch even a little peace.

Peace @Eden1919

@Appleblossom thank you again for your kindness.

I am still feeling awful today i am trying to keep focused but i am getting worried i am starting to make plans again...... plans for bad things...... i do not know what to do anymore.

About 6 months ago I was making plans in that way. I just have to keep hanging in there. I also know from my own eperience that I can talk myself into being very committed to life for a while, until the next time ....

@Eden1919 Your thread about improving the forum was really good.

I am also one who shifts the conversation from specific mental illness issues to more daily life and people's histories and interests. Many people in my family had a diagnosis anyway and the other stuff is still there. Thats why I asked questions. Not to make you uncomfortable, but if we talk to people as people maybe we can get a bit of relief from bad symptoms. Thats all.

Take care, improvements might only be slight but they might become meaningful, when you look back.

Hey @Eden1919, sorry to read you're struggling so. I see tonight you have initiated an important conversation on the forums with your thread, so I wanted to thank you and give you a big pat on the back.

Having a lack of trust in those around you in RL (like your psychiatrist) must be incredibly difficult and isolating. I guess I am lucky in that regard that I've always put my psychiatrists on pedestals so to speak and been outright forthcoming with them (though sometimes that has been to a fault of mine as I've received inappropriate treatment).

I have no magic words of advice. But just wanted to let you know I am hearing you and realising how scary things must be in your world. I hope you can hang in there.

Hi @Eden1919 - you did initiate and brought awareness to an important topic this evening and if listened to, helped not only yourself but many others to receive the support they need on these forums. I would also like to thank you.

This is the first time I have seen your post as it's now clear for me to notice. So I can see what you mean about the problem of new urgent posts having the potential to be pushed down out of sight by ongoing larger threads - or they can be overlooked altogether which can disadvantage many. So glad you raised this important point.

I am sorry to read that you are struggling so. I am going to go back and read more. I want you to know that we are hear for you and that you are not alone. Sitting with you 🤗

Hi @Eden1919 - hope you are feeling a bit better. How are you going today? With the other topic raised about suggestions of coping when trigger being moved - please do take the advice given by the moderator if you don't feel comfortable with this. It's hard to see for others to support you with 🌹

Thank you all @Appleblossom @Queenie@Former-Member I am still feeling awful and scared i am tired and i want to scream i dont feel right and my head is a mess i am so stressed and i feel like i am going to explode i am still scared of my psychiatrist and i am honestly at the end of my rope and i just cant do this anymore and i have tried to tell my supports that i am not coping but i dont think they understand quite how intense it is but i dont know how to make them understand. it doesnt matter maybe there is no point trying anymore anyway i cant do this and i never will be able to so maybe i should just call it quits so i dont have to suffer anymore. i dont know i dont know what to do.

Sorry to read that you are still feeling in crisis @Eden1919. Please reach out to someone who can assist you no matter what the time is. Contact your support team and make them aware of how intense your feelings and distress is and they will help you. Please do t hesitate. Or/and ring lifeline or contact a moderator here. Whatever helps you best.

There have been times where I have felt like you but with the right help and support I got through this and felt better and even though I can still have bad days - my quality of life has improved Eden and it can for You too with the right help and support. Hang onto hope - you matter and we care 💞

Hi @Eden1919 it is important to get support if you feel things are unbearable. As @Former-Member sugessted you can contact lifeline as they are a crisis servcie and can respond to your needs and be an ear to listen to as well

@Former-Member @jazz thanks i am not sure about helplines right now i have had very bad experiences with them in the past i am suposed to meet a friend soon and i am trying to hold on until then and mabye seeing them will help a little idk i am trying.