Catty92New Contributor
Getting in touch with your feelings and their causes
I have been diagnosed with BPD 2 years ago, and for a short while I followed therapy and took some medication as well. Unfortunately I stopped with therapy when my psychologist announced that she is leaving that company to work somewhere else, and since then I am living somewhere between ignoring and accepting my diagnosis. Now I am turning to you for help because there is a particular issue that causes me quite some issues and I was wondering if maybe someone with more experience has some suggestions for me.
For days I have been feeling really sad, occasionally feeling like I will start crying, but I can’t pinpoint the reason for my sadness. This happens very often and there is always something behind it that I realize in a couple of days. After the realization I can deal with the issue and find solutions (sometimes not right away, but always eventually) which will make my bad mood disappear.
I was wondering if people with BPD often experience this sort of problem? Is there a technique that works for you to find the cause of your negative feelings?
Another thing that I have recently experienced and rather startled me was not being in touch with my emotions at all. My whole February I spent in sort of a bubble, feeling happy, balanced, stress free when my mum visited me (she lives far away from me and we don’t meet often in person, but talk on the phone dry day) and she asked me what’s wrong, why am I sad. I told her that I have no idea what she means, I am perfectly happy. She said that she didn’t notice it on the phone but now when she sees me in person, she can feel that I am not okay. The same night my husband told me during an argument, that I am always unhappy lately. I felt angry with them both then but they got in my head and within 2 days I have found the reason and realized that in fact I was feeling really sad indeed. It scares me how much I was detached from my own emotion. It was either never happened before or maybe it just went unnoticed by me as no one said anything.
Can you help me by sharing your similar experiences and telling how you dealt with the situation?
Seeing that I am not alone is sometimes enough to feel better about myself.
Thank you all and I am sorry for the long, rambling post. I rarely talk about these things and it’s hard to put it into writing.
For days I have been feeling really sad, occasionally feeling like I will start crying, but I can’t pinpoint the reason for my sadness. This happens very often and there is always something behind it that I realize in a couple of days. After the realization I can deal with the issue and find solutions (sometimes not right away, but always eventually) which will make my bad mood disappear.
I was wondering if people with BPD often experience this sort of problem? Is there a technique that works for you to find the cause of your negative feelings?
Another thing that I have recently experienced and rather startled me was not being in touch with my emotions at all. My whole February I spent in sort of a bubble, feeling happy, balanced, stress free when my mum visited me (she lives far away from me and we don’t meet often in person, but talk on the phone dry day) and she asked me what’s wrong, why am I sad. I told her that I have no idea what she means, I am perfectly happy. She said that she didn’t notice it on the phone but now when she sees me in person, she can feel that I am not okay. The same night my husband told me during an argument, that I am always unhappy lately. I felt angry with them both then but they got in my head and within 2 days I have found the reason and realized that in fact I was feeling really sad indeed. It scares me how much I was detached from my own emotion. It was either never happened before or maybe it just went unnoticed by me as no one said anything.
Can you help me by sharing your similar experiences and telling how you dealt with the situation?
Seeing that I am not alone is sometimes enough to feel better about myself.
Thank you all and I am sorry for the long, rambling post. I rarely talk about these things and it’s hard to put it into writing.
