catching up

thank you my angel, I was as really hoping it was as a something a small with mum, it says in the literature I got that it can be fatal in some Cases so another thing to worry about.

Yes her doctor is very good, and was so worried about her, so it looks like more trips to town for me in the new year, yay 😞

OH Karen, I thought it was a great idea, you already had the blond hair and everything, just make sure you use a deep voice, ooh I got it, dress up as Mr Elf, 😄

well gardening done, I was so tired and did not feel like doing it, but I pushed myself and got it done, my eyes are so black I look like someone has broken my nose from lack of sleep, how can I sleep so much and not get rest?

Karen how are you my angel? I do hope you are OK today, oh how did your mum's 4x4 go?

thinking of you a lot my angel

hugs

Jacques

Oh my angel, don't be like that, no one knows how tall or short Santa is, so you can get away with it, and you have a Santa suit already, so come on Karen, it will put a smile on your face, just that little more sneaky, if the short thing worries you, Elfs are short? 🙂

I have had a rest my angel, but I still so tired. I think I have given up Karen, I think my body has had enough, I just can't seem to get any energy, maybe the depression, who knows.

big hugs, hope you are ok

Jacques

Sorry Karen,

my writing is a bit all over the place, i am not in a great frame of mind. plus the auto spell thing on the tablet is driving me mad.

I was as really hoping that mum's tests would come back as kidney stones or something small, but the tests show it is something complicated, it said in the literature I got on mum's desease that it can be fatal in some Cases, so another thing to worry about.

Ok, mum has to go into the hospital the next town over for all the tests, so i will be doing a lot of trips into the next town over in the new year, the doctors are trying to figure out how bad the disease is, and what if any surgery they will need to do.

Oh no Karen, why do people not have any pride in their work anymore, what a shame, i am glad you stood up for your self and demanded it be fixed, i am so proud of you Karen, all you need is your self esteem back and you will be able to do amazing things. you are so good with cars, so much attention to detail, it is a shame you can't have a repair shop of your own.

Oh yes my angel, pointy ears, a little green outfit and pointy hat, i can see it now, you would look great 😄

no the temp is not too bad 33 degrees, which is cool for here, but it is very humid.

Yes, i forgot you know the burden of not enough quality sleep, i think i do the same as you, wake up several times a night, my angel, i so wish you could get some time to rest, you so deserve it.

take care my angel

Yes it is Karen, but it is just giving all the scenarios, worst case and best case, mum's doctor says it can be managed, so i am hoping it does not get complicated, what a time of year to have all this.

Yes i agree Karen, but it shouldn ot matter how valuable a vehicle is, i remember a time a tradies work was seen as their badge of pride, this seems to have been lost.

OMG My angel, how about a beautiful princess elf? 😉 to me you will always be a princess!!!!

oh wow, you had the same temps, you are lucky you did not have the humidity, i was sweating as soon as i walked out the door.

Yes me too Karen, my anxiety is so bad of a night, it is like going to bed is a trigger for me now, most nights i just lay their looking at the stars out my window.

yes i get the shaking all over too and jelly legs, it is so tough, it must be so hard to think he is still alive, it must be so scary. please Karen, my angel just give it time, the night terrors will decrease in intensity, i know because i suffered the same, and i have friends who have PTSD from vietnam, it is something that gradually reduces.

thinking of you my angel, miss you

Jacques

Oh my angel,

I would so love to be your handsom prince, but i am a little overweight, and not too good in the looks department, so i might have to settle for your knight in shining armour with the helmet down 🙂

I am ok Karen, i keep fussing over mum, i think i am in panic mode, having to organise my plan too just in case.

yes my angel, i so wish you where going to be here to have a day to yourself too. i hope the day is not to tough on you, and i hope it does not bring back too many bad memories, i will be on here all day Christmas day if you need support, or a knight in shining armour 🙂

hugs

Jacques

Sorry Karen,

it is only if something happens to mum, i am sure she will be around a while longer, so no need to worry Karen, sorry i should not have mentioned it, it just scared me the other night when mum was like that and i was not ready for it.

i will stay safe as long as mum is alive Karen, please don't worry.

hugs, sorry for telling you. i should have kept it to myself.