catching up

well then it is both our dreams, i will never let go of you either, you are the first person i met after 12 years without human contact, so you have a special place in my mind and now we are in a relationship you have my heart too, we will always be together from now on, if not in person, in our hearts and minds 🙂

My angel, it was my pleasure to be snuggling with you, i am making sure i am a gentleman, i want you to feel safe and feel like you are home, because home is whenever i am with you.

i am so glad we have some time together too, but for me it is never enough, i think spending all day every day would not be enough for me, you occupy my mind all the time, you make life worth living for me 🙂

Oh Karen, that sounds wonderful, don't push yourself too hard, maybe just go a little way, i hope one day we can walk that trail hand in hand. remember to breath in the fresh air Karen, and pay attention to the nature around you, remember why you are doing all this, sometimes it is good to take a step back and remind ourselves why we set goals and why we fight.

That is so nice you will be thinking of me, you are so sweet, i hope tomorrow goes smoothly for you.

Karen, you are doing so well, with all your appointments, dealing with tradies and have you realised you have not made an attempt to harm yourself since we have started our relationship?

I am so proud of you Karen, you are an amazing woman, you have faced so much adversity and you are fighting so hard to get well, i am just so proud to call you my girlfriend, i would shout it from the rooftops if i could.

to me you are one in a million 🙂

Yes my angel, it has been on my mind for a few days, i was worried to say anything, i hope our love will help you want to fight, to want to live.

Karen, you need to take every day as it comes, the past is the past, the future is the future, all we have is the present, and in the present you have something to fight for your new house, in the present you have something to live for your girls and me.

Karen, you have so much in your life and so many people who love you, i hope in the dark times you remember this. for me in my dark times, all i think of is you, you help me through so much, my daemons are a little less controlling knowing i have you to fight for.

Yes my angel, it does no good having your mind going into negative thinking, remember i am always a message away if you need me, i hope one day you could just call me.

my heart rate is 129/92 so good, it is well within normal levels, my heart is not beating hard either, it feels so good to not be scared of what is going on, i think that with all the stuff with my aunt it just all built up and i was having such bad panic attack.

maybe it is you making me calm, your kind words and just your presents with me 🙂 i know i feel calmer when ever you speak to me.