catching up

I wish i could put my big arms around you and tell you the same, i wish you could feel protected with me 🙂

Karen, things will get better, it will just take time, i will be with you every step of the way, i promise you, if you fall i will be here to pick you up, if you need a shoulder to cry on, my shouder will be here, if you need someone to hugs, i am here my friend, always.

Karen, you have so much strength and determination, i know you don't see it, but i see it every day, you can do this, i am only to happy to walk beside you and i am so proud to call you my friend.

Hi my angel, i am missing you terribly, i wish we had some time to chat. haha, yeah well, it is getting their, still a lot of work to go, i just bought some new 160W speakers, built a speaker box out of some scrap timber, the sound is incredable, so that is what i spent all day doing. i will take a pic of them tomorrow 🙂

I do hope i can go out their for some "me" time i told mum yesterday i am going to have to go out their every day to try to calm my anxiety, i am going to setup another computer out their, as well as music, and i am going to setup the sun lounges to a sort of lounge to sit on.

I will not feel safe in the house anymore, so i need to make my safe place out in the shed.

I will have my fingers crossed the class goes well, remember to thank the anxiety, but tell it you are safeand don't need it their.

hugs my angel, i hope we can talk some more after your class.

Jacques

Yes i am trying, you know what it is like when you have no safe place, i have had one for so long and now it is being destroyed.

i hope i can cope with all this. only time will tell.

I hope you can get control of you anxiety and manage the class. i have my fingers crossed.

hugs my angel i am so proud of you. it is really tough what you are doing. you are an inspiration to me.

Jacques

Naughty naughty ,

I am so glad you skipped a class, you did need a break, it feels a little sneaky chatting to you now 😄

how are you my friend? did the girls visit yet? my angel, you are doing so well, you have been their a week and had a roller coaster ride. but you have made it this far, that is what i find inspirational.

hugs my angel

Oh Karen, that is so fantastic, i bet it was so nice to cuddle them, you so needed to see them, show you a good reason to fight on, you need to have them in your thoughts when you are low, they need you my friend, you are their mum.

I am so glad they are visiting over the 3 days, i bet you enjoyed seeing them.

my angel, i wish i could give you a hug, it would be so nice, maybe one day.

I have to go and fix mum's cousins computer tomorrow, it should not take long, then i have my day out, i think i am looking forward to it for once, i am so sick of being locked in the house, i am getting worn down by looking at the same walls.