The moment you google Borderline Personality Disorder and you my as well have typed your name.

It sounds like you have had quite a hard and horrible road to get to where you are now.

I'm not much help but maybe if you post some of your questions some of us can have a crack at answering them. I know I'm better at answering questions than talking generally. I waffle too much when I talk generally. I probably waffle too much anyway actually!!! 😛

Well there one of my questions I constantly talk,, to anyone about anythink,, I love listening to people problems then supporting them with empathy, but after reading about eempathy I'm confused,, so am I actually caring and it them or am I caring about myself.. and I talk way to much www hen comfortable with person or people,,,,I told my close friends to zone out on me I don't care because I can pretend they are listening,, I also have great difficity falling asleep, I can't stop thinking, in tcowdy Ward the nurse called it rack ng thoughts,, well it certainly fast thought but also many thought at once,, is that normal for bpd

I was scared and so sad when i googled it. I wish i didnt. Yes i can identify and i agree with my diagnosis but i found that reading the symptoms like that was so confronting. I cried for days after i was diagnosed...i was ashamed to tell the people in my life who are my support and in turn i was ashamed that i felt ashamed. I still struggle with it most days 😞
I definitely agree with others about finding the right psychologist that has experience in BPD. Medication from a psychiatrist has helped me too, although i suspect it eases the symptoms of my other diagnosis which is a chemical imbalance rather than personality disorder.
I havent been able to say this stuff to anyone but my doctors so i really appreciate these forums and all the users 🙂