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crazy aaa @Owlunar already wednesday

I still find the days zip past -- ha ha me too , when it comes to sunday night , i feel like yelling where did the weekend go and mr shaz gets to get low because the next day is monday xx

I had to leave the computer overnight and I miss it when it's not here - sending you knowing hugs my friend

it is like when you have no power and you put the jug on for a cup of tea

I think the problem is @Owlunar is that mr shaz has had a life of soo many struggles , his first marriage , losing so many jobs , accidents , attempted si , money problems , mental health problems , his children , divorce , no money , no security

and now with regular very low income , we have work and I have tried to tell him we can semi retire , we can do with less work which will help him and me , but I think he needs to keep working or maybe all this will be gone , don`t think he wants to go back to nothing

I inherited my dad`s house when he passed away which was my childhood home before mum and i left

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@Shaz51wrote:

I think the problem is @Owlunar is that mr shaz has had a life of soo many struggles , his first marriage , losing so many jobs , accidents , attempted si , money problems , mental health problems , his children , divorce , no money , no security

and now with regular very low income , we have work and I have tried to tell him we can semi retire , we can do with less work which will help him and me , but I think he needs to keep working or maybe all this will be gone , don`t think he wants to go back to nothing

I inherited my dad`s house when he passed away which was my childhood home before mum and i left

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Hi @Shaz51

With that kind of background I can understand Mr Shaz' anxiety - he could never relax and assume things might run smoothly - it sounds like chronic disappointment - which makes for a very unsettled life - I get it

As anxious as the job you both have makes him feel - not having it would mean everything might disappear as things have before - that must be a very hard thing for him to comes to terms with

My ex-h did not know he had a brother stillborn a year before he was born - to one day. He only found out because it was on his father's death certificate and he was only 22 then - and I think my ex had grief pushed down into him with no explanation and when our son became too much of a problem - well - he never could deal with an emergency and kids have emergency -

It was actually impossible for him to deal with thing like that and when one of the kids was hurt I would deal with it alone but if he was around I would get furious with him just standing there looking helpless - this did not rouse him to action so I could never understand it

I only see our marriage as sad now - I see my ex as a very sad and lost man - I couldn't see this when we were married or for a long time afterwards - in fact - reading what you and @Faith-and-Hope write helps me to understand my ex better -

The past does have an effect upon us - that's what most of us are about I think

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